It’s midnight here and Great Date just left for home after a lovely lovely date. I’m feeling good.. mellow, happy, relaxed. I knew before he came that he would not be staying and I didn’t like it but I accepted it. My playspace room isn’t ideal, and to be honest I still think it’s a little silly not to stay, but also I see that it is his right to choose to leave, and right now I’m just feeling so happy about where things are that I don’t mind a little time to write a little blog and cozy up with Netflix alone.
Hubby wanted me to vacate so he and Roller Girl could have a date tonite because her week is shaping up like that and I was pretty happy to be able to do so. Broken arm and thumb healing, and NOT needing surgery (a fact I learned today), and I am finally able to do enough self care things to be able to go to the playspace.
So, Great Date and I snuggled and talked, had a little Italian, some pretty damn hot sex, and I bid him adieu. In the realm of honest and open.. we navigated another milestone. It was hard. I’m not going to lie, but I just threw it out there. There is a guy I’ve been chatting with on Ok Cupid’s dating site and we’ve decided to meet. I don’t know if it’s really anything and it may or may not be, but I decided to just be open and meet him. I am currently only dating Great Date and Traveler, and while that certainly keeps me busy enough with Hubby too, I think I have time to explore and be open just a little, certainly if the person is already poly and busy too, as this guy is. I don’t have a cute name for him yet, but he seems like a really decent guy. He’s been married and poly for about 4 years and has a daughter. He’s very into roller derby with his wife and daughter (I’m guessing a second older daughter from his wife). He’s pretty cute, with wicked tattoos on his arms and he may be too cool for me. He likes to go out a lot and I like to go out, but not all the time. I’m cool in my own way I guess.. but I’m not “hip” and he seems to be. He contacted me though, so he must like something.
I told all of this to Great Date and you know, it went really well. I think he was honest about his feelings, about me getting a little closer to Traveler and making this coffee meeting and I think that was okay. I was honest and reassuring and he was honest too and it was good. He also let me know that the hot young girl he’d previously dated contacted him asking for moral support and he’d been there for her and I was good with it.
I have ZERO doubt that he and I both will have to process feelings and talk more about this stuff as it comes, but I have to say I am excited that we’re doing it. He is just… so damn special to me and so irreplaceable. I was constantly in awe of him tonight.. how real and sincere he is. As he told me of things he’s struggled with recently, addressed that really old tape little kid knee-jerk reaction stuff I just listened.. well.. with awe. He said all those little things my mind whispers in dark times. He just said it out loud and freely. He was dealing with that really deep “Am I unloveable” stuff. He’s already processing it, and there was little I could add except to share how I related, but it was amazing to watch him uncovering and dealing with this stuff.
We popped the cork. Things could be on the horizon and it really is okay. I love Great Date and whether this new guy becomes a big great love or just a jerk over coffee is irrelevant to that. Great Date’s a freak.. but just the right freak for me, and we are adding another “communicates openly and honestly about difficult topics and feelings” to our list of great relationship qualities. Yep… the cork is out, and it’s sweet.