I haven’t worn a dress in years and did so mostly because she encouraged me and Cleveland was actually right about the tights. I liked wearing a dress Friday and was really glad I did. There were members of the head office and a Senate office there and I had to give out two formal awards and talk in work groups. She would have gotten a kick out of that. I was so stressed leading up to all of this.
And when I went to get ready to go to the club on Saturday I decided I didn’t want to wear any of my clothes and went shopping at the rack. I bought a dress and tights. A FREAKING DRESS. I wore it that night. I hadn’t worn a dress since 2002 and I wore two in two days.
I found another good cocktail.
I wanted to hear how her talk went with her friends.
I flogged a man with some other people Saturday and learned a little bit about flogging in the process. Then I got flogged. I needed to be excited and I was a little nervous beforehand. When I told my club friend, she grabbed me and made out with me for about 5 minutes. We both got a little excited. We realized we’d “wasted” it though because the person flogging wasn’t ready and we made out again a short while later. My club friend previously told me she was only bi from the waist up, but she made a point to tell me after making out with me that she had resolved that and was now bi all over, and kissed me again. I would have loved talking to her about it. It’s fun to tell her that stuff. She’s so funny and it makes me laugh so hard.
On Sunday Cleveland and I had a lovely date and he said some things I felt so deeply reassured by. I would have liked sharing that joy. She loves Cleveland and likes Cleveland stories.
It sucks how fragile really precious things are sometimes and how quickly strong goes to gone. I get it, but I’m just saying I miss her.