Well.. a lot of things have come to a head. The old problem with my roommate situation has arose again and I’m throwing in the towel. My roommate and I had a talk and I can’t really talk about it much here because she (they?) have been reading the blog and are upset.
This is kind of hard, mostly because I’m hurt and angry and this is where I would talk about my feelings but it’s being used to judge me. I was told that they’d read and discussed the blog and this is why I’ve been made to feel so unwelcome in my home. I’m getting more and more angry the more I think about it honestly. I’m not going to quote anyone, but fuck off that I can’t talk about my feelings about this. Kink made me a person of bad character? Screw off.
For the record.. this is a blog. It’s not the New York Times. I write about my feelings and opinions and experiences here. EVERYTHING IN THIS BLOG IS MY OPINION. I do not claim to be a journalist. It’s a blog about love and sex and relationships and the whole damn thing is about feelings. It’s a blog! It is and always will be my view of things. People who have other views can feel free to write their own blogs. I am as honest as I can be here, but it is all from my perspective and my view and my opinion. There. Anyone who doesn’t understand what a blog is should feel informed.
I have been unfairly judged and I think it’s crap that I’m the only one who is expected to make compromises or sacrifices. I think it’s pretty asinine and I feel stupid that I tried so hard. I was actually texting my schedule like a little kid, and tried hard to remember that they preferred this info in text. It was out of line to ask for, but I was happy to try to make things work with something as un-time consuming as a text. If it made things better it was worth it. In the end I was blamed for things I can’t POSSIBLY have caused and was told that both of my roommates wanted me gone because of my “lack of character”. Anyone offended by what I talk about here should really consider not reading my blog. Duh. If you don’t want to know my feelings or experiences or thoughts you should not read my blog.
So I started apartment hunting and may have found a good place. It’s pretty cool and in my price range and best of all.. has no fucking judgements about an adult life that includes dating and/or sex in my home. I agreed to try to move out by February 1st and my roommate agreed to cover any rent they incur if they don’t get a roommate after then since she is requesting I break my lease when I don’t want to move. Frankly I don’t want to have to have the work and expense of a move, but I can’t stand living here with that kind of negative energy so I’ll be relieved and I’m glad she owned that so I could leave as she’d asked me to and on her time line. I won’t do anything to be an ass because it isn’t who I am. Contrary to popular opinion in some parts, I am a person of character. If I weren’t I would have said “if you have the problem YOU move” or “I am on the lease and you have ZERO right to ask me to move” or “I’m not a little kid and I won’t text you all my whereabouts”. Nope. I’m gonna take my shit and consider my blessings.