I’m still processing some stuff, but for now the storm has passed with Traveler and I. I didn’t resolve my future tripping and I don’t have it all ironed, but I decided that right now I just need to love and be loved.
So we had a wonderful mid-week date. He helped me bring home groceries and then talked with me while I made dinner and cleaned up my kitchen. We talked about Clash of Clans and World of Warcraft and Halloween parties. We laughed and ate my delicious chili. Afterwards I was hot and went to change and called him in to lay on the bed with me. I asked what he wanted to do tonight and he said “I really don’t care at all what we do. I just want to be with you and spend time with you”. Of course I kissed him for that.
We planned to lay together for a minute and then go back out to the living room to play World of Warcraft together. And we never left the bed. We ended up in bed from about 630pm on. We got utterly blissed out on touch, just petting each other and snuggling and kissing and saying sweet loving things. We didn’t even really talk. We smiled and kissed and petted and snuggled and writhed together. We looked at each other and smiled. We twined our limbs together like roots. We rolled over. We sighed happily. We hummed pleasure. And it was utterly and completely perfect.
It didn’t answer any future questions and it didn’t need to. It made me feel loved. It made me feel deeply and completely loved, and I told him that. I also told him he was kinda crazy about me. He agreed.
Did you know that snuggling releases oxytocin and that oxytocin is healing? It’s true.