I’ve been tired, so tired my love. My mind is weary. I felt like I’d drown in this and needed those few hours to dig in the dirt with you and to make my body ache. I needed to quiet my mind and rest in the labor. I needed our breath, and the sounds of us working, and the little smiles and dirty kisses and the sun that was there even if it was cloudy. I needed to rest, but my mind won’t ease now. There is too much to do and to think about and I’m thinking deadlines deadlines deadlines. So I needed to just work with you. I needed the comfort and ease of the way we work together.
I’ve felt a little distant from you love. I’ve felt far away and too deep in my head with all of this work. I’ve needed to linger and spend time looking at each other, but it’s time we don’t have. Thank you for your little touches while we worked side by side later on the couch. I needed those little smiles. I needed those pets. Soon love. Soon.
Thank you for fantasizing with me a little afterward, for giving my mind something to chew on that wasn’t academic. Thank you for knowing how to please me so well, for your warm skin and your soft kisses. Oh, when you call be beautiful or pull me to you. Oh when you trace my curves. Oh god I was so tired but I could not stop touching you and being touched by you. I love you I love you I love you on my breath and in my heart and my head. I fell asleep sated and tired and ready for blissful sleep, such comfort.
And thank you for not being able to get out of bed. Dozing in and out of sleep with you curled to me…. heaven. Why can’t I ever stop touching you? Craving your touch? So many little kisses. Everywhere. Your taste. Your smile. Your scent. On my lips and in my breath and in my heart. I love you I love you I love you. The warm comfort of you lingers.
I’m so tired, love. But we’re almost there. You’re such a comfort.