Oh Please. Lies are see-through. You’ll pretend and say anything to “compete”, though of course it’s not a competition. When you play that game, you always lose because love and sex and relationships aren’t a sport. They aren’t a contest. You don’t have to dangle carrots you think others are dangling to get the attention you crave. And you sure as shit aren’t going to make any real converts by trying to out be what someone else is. Be you.
Be you. Be who you are. Do what you do well. Love those you love for what they are. Don’t pretend you want what you don’t. Don’t use people. Be authentic about what you want and need and what you like. Tell people clearly and directly what you want and show them who YOU are. Those that belong in your life will love you for that. Stop playing games to deal when you are jealous or insecure or unhappy. Don’t create drama and whisper darkness to hurt others because you are hurting. Talk to people honestly about these feelings when they come up, because they do in all of us, and work on what is driving them. Until you admit you are tweaked, you will never be free of what is chapping you. Sigh.